Thursday night after a 12 hour day with Adirah, no nap at all, I attempted to put her to sleep. I had been alone with the kids for 4 days and each day was getting harder and I was getting more and more fatigued. I was going back and forth between their two rooms, reading to Asher, trying to soothe Adirah.
Adirah announced "I am not tired at all!" It is now the time she usually goes to sleep even after her usual 2 hour nap. She has to be tired.
"Just stay in your bed, I will come back" I lie.
Usually Adirah lies on her pillow, gets neatly tucked in, I give her bunny and then she goes to sleep. But she did not want her blankets on. I put her in her crib. She sat up, but I still hoped she would go back to sleep.
I went back to Asher's room and read to him. Asher asked for more books, then he asked for a story about when I was little. All I could think of was the sink full of dishes and the lunch I still had to make for him the next day. I finally escaped ...